Exciting!

We find out tomorrow if we're having a boy or girl.  I am so excited.  So excited. Not sure why this time more than the rest but...wow.  I was very excited to find out with the others, but this seems like such an amazing half-way point reward.

Thinking back four months ago when I found out I was pregnant, I was in a completely different state of mind.  I was just over a month post-op.  Where my sprouts now sprout from my head I had shaved spots.  I was still so uncertain about everything: my recovery, my pain, my prognosis, my life!  In the time that has passed since I have done a lot of growing.  Not just my waistline, but as a person.  I have learned that the little things matter - as long as they are fun and light.  Like letting Georgia have a sleepover because that's what she's wanted to do forever.  It's a little thing that surely made her day...her month...perhaps her six months.  The little negatives - not so much.  Like rude comments from people, or things that would've previously hurt my feelings.  I have learned/am learning to not let those ruin my day.  I have so much to be positive about, thankful for, and live life happily for.  To let the little things bring me down wouldn't be fair to myself.  So on a personal level, I have seen growth.  As Anjali once said "control the controllable."  How true.  I can't control what comes out of the mouths of others, nor their actions.  What I can do is control how I react and my own actions.  Control the situation positively.

Finding out tomorrow just who will be joining our family will be exciting.  Little does s/he know that s/he marked a great changing point in my life.  S/he couldn't have come at a better time.  S/he will be joining three amazing friends for a life filled with love, fun, joy, and excitement!